Not Ready

I have decided that I'm not ready to be the mother of a teenage daughter. I never really did anything as a teenager. The #1 reason was I was SCARED to death of my mother... and I really couldn't stand the thought of disappointing her.
I have a hard time saying out loud the things I need to say, so I kinda know what I need to tell my daughter about boys, but I want to get my point across and still sound like I know what I'm talking about. I can put it on paper and it sounds great, but how lame is it to give my daughter the talk thru a letter. That's just stupid. Its not like I haven't sorta given her the talk. I just need to reinforce them and set down some rules. I was trying to think about what we did with Jacque,but she went to live with her mom when she was 14. My sister nearly drove me crazy when she was 14. Ok so they just lose their minds at 14, or maybe its just me.
Boo is really a good kid for the most part. She's pretty typical really, dirty room, clothes everywhere, spends too much time texting.... You name it, but she's great school wise, still maintains awesome grades. I don't want to over react, but I know I need to react. I just need to do it without freaking out over somethings that may just be normal.
If mom were here, I'd call her and ask for help and to also tell her that I'm sorry for any time I made her feel overwhelmed to the point of insanity.

Whose Who

We got a letter in the mail today from Whose Who stating that Bethany was eligible to apply, due to her academic and leadership qualities. I was excited to say the least. If she's accepted it could mean scholarships down the road. I have until the 30th to get the online application done. I know its a few years til she's in college, but its not too early to start getting it all in order.
She's really a good girl, the other day I noticed on her myspace account a girl she used to go to school with sent her a friend request. This girl had something derogatory toward Jesus on her quote so Bethany told her that if she changed her quote she would add her, well a few more messages were exchanged and then Bethany sent her an email saying that she had changed, she was a different person and that maybe she should pray that it really helps. That she would also being praying for her.
I was so proud of her, its hard being a Christian at any age let alone a teenage one. She invited all of her classmates to revival this past week. A few showed up.
Parent teacher conferences went well, Chase's teacher said he would be bringing home a reader next week, that he was doing well on his letters and sounds. He just needs to work on sound spelling. I have a hard time getting him to do that because he wants it spelled right.
Bethany's teacher said she didn't really need to see me, but I have yet to miss a conference, not going to start now. She said Bethany was a good student in top group of her class, no complaints at all. Said she thought Bethany had great leadership abilities and that she was an influence on her friends to do better, that some of the kids have improved by being around her. She said she doesn't think that she's aware that she does it. I believe God has given her a gift. Subtle and quiet is sometimes the best way to influence a person. Those people often get the most out of other people.
Both kids are doing so well in school I know I am truly blessed.