Beauty

This is my daughter, she's beautiful. She has these gorgeous brown eyes, thick lashes that'd I pluck out of her if I could and attach them to mine. She's got a thick head of hair that you can fix several ways great complexion and a smile that can melt your heart. She's has a sweet, lovable personality. There's just one thing I can't get through to her. She has the lowest self esteem I've have ever seen. She doesn't understand why or even thinks that a boy would like her.

I asked her to just look in the mirror and she keeps saying she don't see it. I asked her to pick just one thing about herself that she liked.....Nothing she said. It breaks my heart to hear this. I know I've always mouthed about how ugly or fat I am. All these years the only thing I've accomplished is to make my daughter feel she's not thin enough or pretty enough.

How do I fix this? How do I get her to really and truly look at herself and be happy with the person looking back at her. Am I the only one who can see how beautiful she is. The beauty she has on the inside can be seen in her actions. She's the most mature young lady I've known.

Maybe the only thing I can do is to change the way I see myself and show her that being happy with yourself is about growing and changing. If you don't like your hair change it, body.... maybe we should do something together.

I just don't really know what to do. To me she's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. God help me to help her see what a gem she is.

If ain't one thing its another.....

I was sitting at home today after church boiling chicken for supper and could smell something burning. Now to me boiling chicken stinks, but it wasn't the chicken. So I check the computers, printers, look to see if something is plugged up. So the smell leads me to the laundry room. OMG the furnace sounded like it was grinding. I opened it up underneath and could see water, I got down on my knees and looked up and cound freakin see sparks...... I nearly panicked so I called Gordon, who of course was on the lake working. So he told me what repairman to call and told me to turn off the air conditioner. I did. Thank God it turned out that there was an internal filter that we didnt know about so after 8 years the thing was pretty nasty, it froze and caused water to pour out onto the wiring. Thank God it doesn't burn out the wiring or caused my house to catch on fire. He cleaned the filter let it dry out and we had air.
So after snakes and no air conditioning I am so ready for vacation. Let the countdown begin. 4 days left to work.........

Faith of children

After our little ordeal with the snake, the kids weren't too keen on going back down to the pool. So the other night with Chase we said our prayers and asked God to rid our yard of the nasty little creatures. Chase asked if God would do and I said what do you think and he said I believe it. So he told his dad that there would be no more snakes because we asked God to get rid of them. I know that God didn't give us the spirit of fear, its something we instil in our kids and make them afraid of things, more for their saftey than anything. Then as they get older we want them to be brave. I don't want to be afraid to go out into my own yard.
I know that the snake was close enough to have bit me and I also know that I am under God's protection. Without him I wouldn't be here, I know this. I'm am trying to have the faith that my son does. You tell him that God can do it and he believes it. No doubt. So that is my goal to have the faith of a child.
Chase has been to Childrens Crusade these past few days, they have puppets and he loves it. He's had so much fun and has even attempted learning a couple of memory verses, he repeats the prayers at church. I am so proud of him and of Bethany who was asked by the youth paster to help the kids in the alter.
I am a good mom because God has blessed me with a great love for my children. I know I need to share that love with others and hopefully someday I'll be able to that.

Another Day in Stilwell (BOO is my HERO)

Today we decided to go for a little swim....Notice Chase in his life vest. The kids jumped into the pool, I notice my floating mat on the ground, I pick it up shake it and decide its too nasty to go into the pool so I threw it down, just happened to look down and this is what I saw.......
Here's a closer view... after I screamed like a little girl and jumped back. So stupid me, I go into the house to grab the camera, needed a picture just in case I was bit. Still screaming and nearly throwing up.
So I grab the shovel, climb up the steps into the pool holding the shovel, I jump onto the edge of pool. I'm short so that's a jump, I have trouble reaching the stupid thing, meanwhile it sees me and is watching the shovel. Did I mention that I'm freaking out..... So Bethany is on the edge of the pool as well, I have trouble reaching so she takes the shovel. It straightens out I yell at her to get it, she chops...screams....chops again...screams....chops again....screams....chops again (you get the picture) I yell at her to cut its head off. She cuts the head, I still see its nasty mouth opening and moving, I grab the shovel and cut its head completely off and tossed it away from the body. I know they can't reconnect but still why take the chance.

As you can see its mouth is full of sand, that was done during the chopping and then flipping it with the shovel away from its body. Ok so I freaked out, but I know a couple of guys who would've left the kids in the pool and took off running into the house.
I think between the two of us we freaked Chase completely out. After it was over he wanted out of the pool. I told him after that ordeal by gosh we were going to have a good swim.
So after all that excitement I think I just need to go to bed.

Glad she's home.

My baby girl had a great trip, she had fun and learned something. What more can you ask for? I was so glad to have her home.

Chase's team won 2nd in the local tournament, I just thot this was so cute them standing in line clapping for the other team getting their medals.

And of course we have to pose for a group picture....
Bethany hates pictures of herself... she's 13 she's not supposed to like them. I think this is an adorable picture. Both of them close together and smiling and not trying to pull each others hair out. That's a good day.
We were goofing off so the next few were taken before I went to work. Don't know if you can tell it or not. but he's killing my back. He's my little man. And then there's me and Bethany. Did I mention I hate pictures of myself?? I do it for my kids so they'll have moments to look back on someday.