Frustrated

I posted this and emailed a few before the election. But the whole issue really bothers me, especially being a Trooper's wife. Trooper 198 pleaded for his life and was ignored. Now the murderer is pleaing for his. My first thought is why should we listen to his pleas when he refused to listen to Nik's... And then for these judges to uphold appeal simply because Nik was a Christian and had a strong belief in God, Does that make his life worth any less. Why do we have freedom of religion if they are just going to slowly take it away from us? I was just sick at first and now I'm just angry. I want to do something. To take stand and stop sitting in the shadows watching everything I believe in being tossed into the garbage.
This Trooper gave his life in an attempt to get meth off the street. His family has been put through hell the past few years, they deserve justice.

Subject: Oklahoma Judges Date: Thu, 23 Oct 2008 16:40:12 -0500
To remind all Oklahomans that when you vote this year you can't forget about Nik, The man who killed him AND the Judges who appealed Malones case...
Who is Nik- Nikky Joe Green Oct 1, 1968- Dec 26, 2003
Nik was a strong Christian. Probably the biggest I've even known.Attended Church at Devol First Baptist.He was the Youth Minister there. He was a Son, Brother, Nephew, cousin and uncle. He was married to Linda and they had 3 beautiful girls. He worked for the Oklahoma Highway Patrol as Trooper 198.
On December 26, 2003, Nik left his wife and three girls at home in bed as he left for work early. He went to check on a stray car on the side of the road less than one mile west of his home. As he approached the vehicle he realized it was a mobile meth lab. Nik attempted to make an arrest however the suspect put up a struggle. After fighting for a while the suspect was able to gain control of Nik's weapon. The suspect then took Nik's life, after Nik begged and pleaded with the man. Nik told him of his wife and three girls. The man still shot Nik in the head. The man then left. He left Nik laying in the ditch.We later learned that the mans name was Ricky Ray Malone. He was from Duncan, Oklahoma. A town only 50 miles away from Devol. Malone was an ex firefighter for the city of Duncan. He was discharged for the use of drugs. Malone was sentenced to the death penalty after a long horrifying trial for the family and friends of Trooper Nikky Joe Green. Since Malone's sentencing he and his lawyers have appealed. They won the appeal based on these things:1. God was mentioned during the trial-they believe the jury was persuaded with Religion...yet Malone was told to swear to tell the truth and nothing but the truth-on the Bible. 2.Linda-a grieving widow cried while she gave her testimony and because she spoke of God whiling speaking of her late husband-whom that anyone who knew him knew he was ALL ABOUT GOD! 3. In the upcoming trial God will not be able to be spoken of. Emotions can not be shown.Is this fair? NOT hardly!

Not Ready

I have decided that I'm not ready to be the mother of a teenage daughter. I never really did anything as a teenager. The #1 reason was I was SCARED to death of my mother... and I really couldn't stand the thought of disappointing her.
I have a hard time saying out loud the things I need to say, so I kinda know what I need to tell my daughter about boys, but I want to get my point across and still sound like I know what I'm talking about. I can put it on paper and it sounds great, but how lame is it to give my daughter the talk thru a letter. That's just stupid. Its not like I haven't sorta given her the talk. I just need to reinforce them and set down some rules. I was trying to think about what we did with Jacque,but she went to live with her mom when she was 14. My sister nearly drove me crazy when she was 14. Ok so they just lose their minds at 14, or maybe its just me.
Boo is really a good kid for the most part. She's pretty typical really, dirty room, clothes everywhere, spends too much time texting.... You name it, but she's great school wise, still maintains awesome grades. I don't want to over react, but I know I need to react. I just need to do it without freaking out over somethings that may just be normal.
If mom were here, I'd call her and ask for help and to also tell her that I'm sorry for any time I made her feel overwhelmed to the point of insanity.

Whose Who

We got a letter in the mail today from Whose Who stating that Bethany was eligible to apply, due to her academic and leadership qualities. I was excited to say the least. If she's accepted it could mean scholarships down the road. I have until the 30th to get the online application done. I know its a few years til she's in college, but its not too early to start getting it all in order.
She's really a good girl, the other day I noticed on her myspace account a girl she used to go to school with sent her a friend request. This girl had something derogatory toward Jesus on her quote so Bethany told her that if she changed her quote she would add her, well a few more messages were exchanged and then Bethany sent her an email saying that she had changed, she was a different person and that maybe she should pray that it really helps. That she would also being praying for her.
I was so proud of her, its hard being a Christian at any age let alone a teenage one. She invited all of her classmates to revival this past week. A few showed up.
Parent teacher conferences went well, Chase's teacher said he would be bringing home a reader next week, that he was doing well on his letters and sounds. He just needs to work on sound spelling. I have a hard time getting him to do that because he wants it spelled right.
Bethany's teacher said she didn't really need to see me, but I have yet to miss a conference, not going to start now. She said Bethany was a good student in top group of her class, no complaints at all. Said she thought Bethany had great leadership abilities and that she was an influence on her friends to do better, that some of the kids have improved by being around her. She said she doesn't think that she's aware that she does it. I believe God has given her a gift. Subtle and quiet is sometimes the best way to influence a person. Those people often get the most out of other people.
Both kids are doing so well in school I know I am truly blessed.

Waking Grumpy

My son is alot like me in soooo many ways. I'm not a morning person, never have been. Well getting him up for school Monday morning was horrid. He was crabby, wouldn't help getting himself dressed. He just laid there like a limp rag. When I got onto him to help, he doubled up his fist and growled. Which of course makes me have to get onto him.
I guess I shouldn't let him stay up so late on the weekends. Or start winding him down at 6 or 7pm. He's so different from my daughter who at the same age had her own alarm. She wanted to be a big girl and have her own alarm and get up on her own.

Age is only a Number

My son is adorable and I really love the fact he has no concept of age. A couple of weeks ago he came home and was telling me that he told his friend Drayton that I was 19!!! He said "I'm so excited about being 6, mom are you excited about being 20?" I said I sure am!!!! I'm not really looking forward to the day when he realizes that mom is old. Really though I don't feel any different than I did at 19. My bones pop a little more. Some of the same things still make me laugh. I don't want to be that young again. I enjoy my age, I think. I apprecieate it anyway. I'm having loads of fun, just being me. Not to mention teasing my daughter about boys or a boy in particular. She'd die if I blogged about that. Just teasing her and watching her face turn red is just fun. I remember the fun things with mom and thats how I want to be remembered. So age is really only a number it doesn't define who or what I am, it only gives me experience. You gotta love that.

Playing around

I love to play around with the kids, seems like its always just us so we goof around. Most times I can't even get them to take a serious picture. But these goofy pictures show that my kids are for the most part happy. We have our moments, from the mouthing to being grumpy in the mornings or hormones.
This picture I finally figured out how to take pics in black and white. And in RAW shots as well, but those won't post. I'm not really sure what he's doing. I would like to think that he's going to blow me a kiss, but with that wicked little smile who knows....... This one is my daughter and her friend, she usually has a big smile on her face. Pretty rare I think for a 13 almost 14 year old girl. Hormones raging and a cute boy can't walk by with out getting a once over. She's a smart girl, I'm thinking she's not dating until she's out of school.... and college is a school!!!!

Privacy

Since becoming a mom I have noticed a few things. Everyone expects you to know where everything is, you're supposed to be able to explain anything at a moments notice.
But why is it that you can't go to the bathroom alone? Its like the moment you sit down someone comes walking in, usually my son. He sits on the bathtub to tell me about his day... Then my daughter is laying on the bed just outside talking and then my husband is standing at the door. All are talking and I just want to do my thing and get outta there.
Maybe I should start holding a family meeting in there??? I love my family dearly and wouldn't trade them for anything, but is it too much to ask for about 2 minutes of privacy?